I have been feeling down for the last few days since saturday to be more exacts.
Second, Saturday I got an email from my ex-wife and she was saying a lot of nice things about,
I must admit that the years since I ditched her, weren't extraordinary great, they were bareable, but they were definitly an improvement over the walk in hell that was my marriage... Those events make me think about my life so far, and it was probably because I was allready in a bad mood but I found nothing in it to make me proud of myself ... ok I managed to get my B ScA. in computer Engineering, I wrote a small os and a filesystem while being at university ... if those are nice accomplishment why I can't feel proud of them?
Finaly something else happened, and I'm still wondering why I feel bad about it, someone, who I must admit that I'm definitly not insensible to her charm, come back in my life. I know, well I think I know, from some sources and weird coincidence that I might have some chances, so it's seems it's something positive but why I feel down??
Probably because I'm shy and scared. Scared of what? being rejected by someone I think I care about? yes definitly ... anyway time to try to do something productive ... maybe I will feel better after ... I'm so tired of this feeling of emptyness