What's the point of all of this ...

For the past few months (or should I say years) I'm trying to get rid of this feeling that I'm born in the wrong era or maybe aeon and in the current society I'm more than worthless ... it's hard and since this morning I'm asking myself why bother trying to improve myself and feel better if nobody care about me anyway (ok it's not quite true it seems there is at least one living being that care about me ... only because I feed him and clean his litter box ... so basicly he's doing like everybody else he uses me ...) and something that really piss me off is some people take me for granted for their development projects even when I'm not sure about the viability of it ... this is really helping me to feel better about myself

So this morning I really contemplated the "Cliff solution {TM]" but since I'm a failure I didn't did it ... hey I'm not that crazy I don't want to add this failure to the rest I also thought of going elsewhere but in the end I will only be running from myself and it's kind of hard to do

so I will simply stay and wait that those feelings go away for a short period of time and came back to kick me with greater force next time ...